I rarely share my deepest feelings about some of my Dreamers, but this time it just felt right to do so with you all:
I have this damaged Pink Sister Dreamer here. I’ve held onto her for… I’d say over a year now. She was one of those absolutely stunning Earth Goddesses that was cut out perfectly – a rarity for this difficult design! I still remember that horrible feeling right there in my soul when I dropped her, and both of her arms just… Oh I cried so so much because, how could I have ruined her like that?!
For some reason though, I kept her. Was it denial? Yes probably at first (she was just so perfect!) But still I chose to keep her with me. It just felt right. After almost a year I suddenly decided it was time to add her crystal, which of course had to be my prettiest Rose Quartz tumble. And then her surgical scars. I chose reconstruction ones to represent the physical scars we Pink Sisters endure throughout our journeys.
But even though she was complete, it felt “wrong” to share her because of that damage – like who would want her? So I held onto her quietly, waiting.
But I look at her and I am filled with such love. And in spite of all of that damage, she radiates such incredible strength, endurance, and beauty. And that is all I can see when I look at her, and I hope you do too. Her damaged arms and imperfection are not very noticeable nor have they really mattered. I didn’t ruin her. Her “scars” are a part of her story, and the story of her human.
Now her human. Oh she is a badass warrior (who probably doesn’t feel like it much but you are!), and your journey has been… oh just holy effing shiteballs! It’s been crazy and you have put up with SO MUCH. So much you shouldn’t have had to as well. And so much of the time it feels like you are just one broken piece after another and you wonder how on earth you could take anymore, and then other times – yeah you slay. And shine. And you are just so full of Love. And this beautiful Pink Sister is a reflection of the amazing soul you truly are.
— April K
P.S If her human is reading this, I just want you to know that you didn’t ruin yourself by getting Breast Cancer. It wasn’t your fault and you did nothing wrong. Unfortunately life is like this, and yes, it’s not bloody fair. Sending you much love, dear Pink Sister xx